dumpster

perception, it's a funny thing. a "real-time" buddy pointed out to me that i've been laughing a lot more recently, or in my case, cackling is more like it. he thinks that i have a lot more joy in my life compared to say a year ago. then there's my other friend (who happens to read my blogs and posts) who just asked me whether i'm okay. i went back and looked at my entries and realized that i have been sounding frustrated or depressed. there's obviously some inner struggle going on.

i think the real me is a very happy, laid back person, and that's possible because i get to "dump" my junk here. the people who read this must think i've been needing some anti-depressant, haha. i try not to place too much emphasis on this online persona, but i am glad that this acts as a dumping ground for me so that when i do interact with others, i'm a happier me. just thought i'd establish that.

the one thing that's been on my mind the most is definitely something career related. i think i'm at a fork in the road right now. it's a good place to be at cause i have options, but narrowing down the decision is the tough part.