e-solitary confinement

recently i have been distancing myself from immediate communication with people online. what i'm specifically referring to are my emails and chatting.

my inboxes are full of emails and messages which i have read everyday and marked "un-read" several times for the simple reason that whenever i put my mind to it, my determination to reply the emails just diminishes in a matter of seconds.

whenever i'm online, i would either appear offline/invisible to people or pretend to be away.

people still message me anyway when i put on the away sign because some of my friends know that i'm usually not really away, but this time i just didn't bother to reply them at all. when i do reply, it'd be short and to the point which probably, eventually scares them off.

it's like i'm unconsciously putting myself into online solitary confinement.

mianz... i'm so emotionally screwed.